During the last three years my husband and I have experienced some pretty major changes in our lives. Through this we have learnt how to trust in God in new ways and what it means to have the joy of knowing that everything we need is supplied by God.
We followed a calling into ministry which meant leaving our current employment, home and community where we were very happy. Sadly, this didn’t work out how we were led to believe that it would and we ended up experiencing the worst year we have ever had.
It was hard to pick ourselves up from this difficult period. We had to find a home for our family. We had lived in church accommodation for the last ten years and so it was quite daunting to step into the private rental market.
My husband has had to seek new employment and has been through a difficult couple of years searching for new direction and purpose.
We have had to settle in to a new community, school and church.
I’m not saying that this time has been easy. It hasn’t – it’s been tough. Really tough!
I worried. I worried a lot.
Where would we live?
How could we survive financially?
How could we provide a stable, settled life for our children in a good school?
How could we find a new community where we could feel at home?
However, although we’ve had to trust in God before for what we’ve needed, we have never had so much up in the air in our lives before! There has never been so much uncertainty. So much change. So much loss.
Yet, it has been an awesome journey to walk along learning that God supplies all we need. All of it!
And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Now to our God and Father be the glory forever and ever. Amen.
It has been such a joy in my faith to watch the ways that God has cared for us and supplied what we’ve needed at this scary, uncertain time in our lives.
He has supplied a home for us to rent from an old friend which is old and quirky but is absolutely perfect for our family!
He has given us an opportunity to live closer to our families than we have for many years and we love the chance to see them lots.
He has provided for us financially – amazingly!
He has given us a wonderful community to live in with a brilliant school for the kids which they love.
We have been given strength during all this uncertainty and worry to keep going – a miracle for me as I struggle without security.
As we have been on this journey of the joy of being dependent on God and seeing the riches He has supplied us with there have been a few things we have learnt along the way.
1. Joy of being surprised
There have been things along our journey that we have needed – without question. We needed somewhere to live and we prayed earnestly for a home to live in.
Yet, there were many things that God has supplied for us that we weren’t expecting.
After over a decade of serving in full-time ministry being in a position of seeking new employment and discovering new purposes for our lives have been difficult.
But, we have been blessed with more family time than we have ever had before. We have been able to both invest in parenting at a really important stage in our children’s lives. We have had the head space, energy and time to build our family and after a incredibly hard, emotional time this has been so restorative.
This wasn’t on our agenda though. We never realised that God had this in store for us and it has been a blessing He has surprised us with. His ways are higher than our ways…
2. Joy of knowing it’s because of grace
We don’t have to earn the favour of God. We don’t have to work at receiving His blessings.
After the experience we had we were feeling like we had failed. Like we had let God down. Although the breakdown in the ministry we were serving in was mainly down to a dysfunctional situation it was still easy to feel like we had stuffed up at times.
Therefore, sometimes when we were praying for help to move forwards and pick ourselves up we felt at times like we didn’t deserve it, like it was too audacious to pray for help when things had gone so wrong.
Yet, this was not how God saw it. What we deserve or don’t deserve doesn’t factor in to the way God blesses us. His blessings come from the equation of grace.
He blesses in abundance and there is nothing we can do to earn it. It’s just because He’s crazy about us!
3. Joy of the humility of dependence
Sometimes, we can get caught up in the drivenness of our fast-paced, high-acheiving world. We want to make things happen for ourselves. We get caught up in our ambitions and plans. It becomes more about us and less about God.
There is nothing wrong of making our hopes and dreams happen of course, but the life intended for us is one of dependence on God. Seeking Him for our needs. Understanding that He is Sovereign over all.
I have forgotten that at times.
Yet, when everything gets thrown up in the air in life, we are reminded of the glorious humility of handing our life over to God and being completely dependent on Him.
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